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tales from the grave

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 23:22:57 GMT

tis been awhile since i've written in here. and a lot has changed.

right now i'm at work here at afi, back from lunch. i'm shoot my short this monday, editing it to screen for thursday. yikes.

recently a guy i worked on a short with offered me a full-time PA position on grey's anatomy, where he works. it was totally flattering, but i turned it down because of school. but nice to know i'm not totally without a life line.

290 is really stressful, but i am loving my writing class. my marketing prof has a insecurity problem and i'm making a huge ceramic "interpretation" of my head, yes my head, in my INTRO to ceramics class. woot.

i'm seeing someone i feel pretty comfortable with, but i think i'm unable to be happy for long periods of time in relationships in general. maybe that's normal. maybe i'm crazy fucked up. i don't know.

anyhoo, i hope to go to new york in november (autumn in ny = heaven) and possible monte carlo for a film fest that the dalai lama doc got into.
i'm pretty tired, going to see a beirut instore performance next and then seeing wes's new movie. two men i like - zack condon and wes anderson.

and oh, lust caution was absolutely beautiful. go see it for yourself.

love always,

li

12:51

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 06:56:45 GMT

i miss the old me.

i hate writing about writing. school needs to be over now. all i wanna do is go home and sleep.
remember junior year? listen to 12:51. i miss that feeling. goddammit, i miss it so much it hurts my head.

need sleep. need clarity. need....... ah well. you know.

but tonight i'm on my way

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 09:36:51 GMT

oh ben kweller, who knew you that you'd get me so well? my apartment from on my way says it all.

haha anyway I AM FREEEE!!!
in the past week i have:
shot a spec basketball commercial for spalding on friday that i produced, ADed, and did MAKEUP on ;)
ADed on my friend kee's music video which shot from 4 pm to around 6 am on both saturday and sunday.
wrote a midterm paper for my hist of international cinema class that ended up to be 7 pages long about 'the marriage of maria braun' and 'bicycle thieves'
wrote a paper for my russian short stories class that compared chekhov's Verotchka to tolstoy's After the Ball.

last night was the first time i had time to sleep since thursday. it was a 2 hour nap. woo.

and on thursday.......... I WILL BE IN AUSTIN. sxsw, the bestest friends ever, music mania, and that sweet sweet austin air... i am very excited.

life is just rushin at me so fast that my head's spinnin round n round. the only reason i'm up now is that i have to type up my notes from the music video shoot for Minipop (check the band out!) and i had a story idea. yep folks, its one of those nights.

and i've been thinkin,
i don't wanna let this industry change me into someone i'll despise. god, to be an honest, good natured, caring individual in the film business is just plain hard to do. and i don't want to be one of those people who have an "on set" personality and their real one. how tiring, and how sad.

people have forgot how to be people in this town. but i'll be ok in my apartment in the city where the sidewalks know my face.

and liz, you are the closest thing i have to meeting mr. allen. send him my undying love.

300 this week!!!!!!!!

seems like old times

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 09:08:41 GMT

annie hall was on tv.

and now i'm all f*ed up in the head. nothing really makes sense, and i'm in such a flurry so it's like i'm making it that way.

do we really just go through it because we need the eggs?
the past few months have been really weird. i suddenly feel so old and jaded about a lot of things, and i'm so busy with keeping my goals afloat that i'm struggling to catch my breath.
i've imagined everything so differently. when you were a kid, did you ever think about how you would be when you turned 20? and now, how does that compare?

woody was looking me in the eyes and telling me to make things perfect in art because it's impossible to do in real life. and i believe him.

all i can hold on to is an island sinking into the sea.

english girls can be so mean

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 18:31:23 GMT

ugh.
personal velocity was on ifc just a sec ago. i'm always scared i'll end up like greta. then again, i'd be great to be parkey posey. i'd get ryan back.

anyway i procrastinated the whole day yesterday and caught up on like a week of sleep. i had a paper due this morning and i crunched it out 2 hours before class. that took everything i had.
tomorrow i have another one due in my russian short stories class. i'm more eager to write this one i think, bc i want to show my prof i'm not a total hollowhead, but i better compare n contrast pushkin n gogol like a friggin scholar. thanks ms. guest.

or is parker like greta in real life? was ryan holding her back? not that ryan's boring or anything. whatever.

anyway i'm busy as fuck...a ton of american analog set n spoon songs crept up on my ipod this morning and i keep thinking about austin. is it bad i can't seem to settle for the life of me?

i have to read a book by thursday, write a paper for tomorrow, call bunches of people and budget for bui's commericial, and eatdrinksleepfunction.

i need to go to the beach.

wow, this post will make sense to no one but myself. woop.
i miss the strokes. julian is danish. ain't that a funny coincidence.

dancing in the sun

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 23:30:43 GMT

aiight SO
sundance was friggin great. i saw a lot of fantastic movies and met some fantastic people.
but the one person that made it so worthwile for me was...
m.ward.
i got to meet him and god, the man is beautiful.

my picks of 07:
snow angels.
grace is gone.
joshua.
reprise.
chasing ghosts.
the go-getter (mostly cuz of m ward 's BEAUTIFUL score, and zooey deschanel)

don't see:
weapons.
adrift in manhattan.
padre nuestros.

going to see movies was great, but i had to stay in a house with 3 other interns and 2 guys who worked there. the house was so cute and quaint. me and 2 of the interns got along great and became even better friends, but this one girl was totally out of control and annoyed the shit out of us. and her and one of the guys (who is has kids and a pregnant wife) had sex in the house when we were all there. god, so much unneeded drama. and my views of the other guy who worked there, whom i previously thought was a sweet and caring guy, totally changed during the trip.
its funny seeing people outside of work.
park city was beautiful. it snowed and it just reminded me of the last time i was in new york in the winter and how beautiful it was. i saw lots of stars i didn't care too much about (like jamie kennedy EVERYDAY and screeth eating sushi next to me) but everyone at the fest was super friendly. thats one thing about film fests i love - the people there are all in your shoes sorta.

next stop: SXSW!!!! wooo!!!

and i'm going to coachella fer sure. bought my 3 day pass today and god, i plan to concert it out like no other. its been too long my friends. here is who i want to see:
bjork
interpol (AHHH!!!!!)
arctic monkays
sonic youth !!!!
rufy wainwright
nickel creek
benny benassi (dance bitch!)
red hot chili peppers
ARCADE FUCKING FIRE!!!!!!
decemberists
TRAVIS. oh man.
KINGS of LEON. i miss you punks.
rapture
BLOND REDHEAD. you know me.
black keys
MSTRKRFT
rage againts the machine.... WAIT WHAT?!@!?!?!!
air
paul van dyk
ole willie nelson
explosions in the SKY!
LILY ALLEN!
ratatat!
and grizzy bear.

my god i am SO EXCITED!!!!
school's kicking me in the ass for sundance and just cuz it can. and i have to find a place to stay in la over the summer and for the rest of my time in this god forsaken city. man, why am i here.

anyway, i love you all oh so very much! =]

just another night in hollywood

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 07:51:43 GMT

alright, so saturday night, I got to work and attend THE golden globes party held at an exclusive beverly hills neighborhood in mike medavoy's house. don't know who mike is? go to imdb and read up.
mike is the ceo of phoenix pictures, the place where i interned for last semester. they host the most esteemed GG party and they gave the interns the chance to work for the beginning of the night but later on get the opp to rub shoulders with some pretty famous people. my job for the night was at the check in desk at the front door, so i got to see everyone that came. here's just a few:

donald trump and his wife
james caan (AHHH)
terrence malick
the hilton mom and her husband
jenna elfman
ben stiller and wife
laura dern (jurassic park)
judith godreche (man in the iron mask french hot lady)
helen mirren and taylor hackford (yay for her wins tonight!)
seal and heidi klum
mark ruffalo and his wife. he is lovely.
dennis quaid, whose band also played at the party
leonardo dicaprio and djimon hounsou from blood diamond. both were in baseball caps and kept a low profile.

and i got to shake hands and talk to the one and only......robert duvall. if pacino and deniro came, i could have died.

interns got to go into the party after most of the people had showed up, so soon we were in the same room with people i reallllly admired. i had a really great time and the view of LA from mulholland dr. is to die for. and the interns really got on the good side of all the execs from phoenix.
my parents were also in town for the mlk weekend, so on sunday we went to eat dimsum at 888 in alhambra and did some shopping. my brother is so tall now, i can't believe it! they went to legoland on saturday.

and on wednesday, I'M GOING TO SUNDANCE!!!!! way excited. missing a week of school though, but eh. i'm lookin forward to it.
there's way too much i have to do though. i have to still get all of my books, figure out what i'm doing this semester, find and apartment sooner or later for summer and so on......gah.
too much .. too much

sylvia plath, poet whose tragic suicide was misinterpreted as romantic by the college girl mentality

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 20:06:08 GMT

so i have this conundrum.
this may sound totally weird, but you know that stereotypical image of people in college? no, not the "i have greek letters on my shirt and drink a whole lot" one, but the east coasty intellectual analytical "if plato is a fine red wine, then aristotle is a dry martini' or 'my thesis is political commitment in 21th century literature' - y image.
i usually loathe the over analytical, which is why certain parts of cinema studies courses make me gag, but i somehow don't get how courses i'm taking now and have taken in the past miss this sort of setting.
for example this morning i had my russian short stories class where we were to read karamzin's 'Poor Liza' to discuss about the sentimentalist writing style, and the guy that sat next to me played with his cell phone the whole time and didn't write anything down. and i don't think he did the assignment. if this was a required class like a writing course i'd understand, but something tells me that people who sign up for a small class that meets at 9:30 in the morning about russian writers 2 times a week should at least be somewhat interested in the subject matter.
in high school, english class (esp mrs guest's) would either really fascinate me or beat the last living brain cells out of my mind. ahem, scarlett letter and great gatsby. i think i would have liked great gatsby if it wasn't for the 'let's make everything in the story a friggin symbol for disillusionment in the american dream' the guest imposed. but what i did like at least were the open discussions about what we were reading. i guess those were enjoyable because by the time we were seniors, everyone knew everyone else since we've been in the same honors classes since freshman yr so we didn't feel we had a front to put up.
so in my class this morning, the discussion was awkward (probably bc it was the first real day of class) but really unfulfilling. the classroom was set up in rows facing the prof. which was weird, but we didn't really get into the material. and i dunno if its just a california thing or whatever, but some of the people in the class don't seem the type to take a class like this taught by a Russian 70 year old. so i'm a judgemental bitch, but juicy couture wearing gals and Dostoevsky don't really seem to fit in my mind.
ugh, i sound so bitchy. but i feel this way. i'm a bitch, what's new?

anyway, i have a psyc course at 2 with this insane prof that i know will be the inspiration for some writing. hope everyone had a great break and new years! call and tell me about it. i miss austin in the fall. i miss my peeps.

sxsw!sundance!golden globes party! GAEL GARCIA BERNAL! beckham to la galaxy .......... ?

Suzhou

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 18:19:10 GMT

i'm back - totally jetlagged and unable to sleep.
coming back to usc instead of houston was a lot easier on me, which i find weird.
my family's doing well and i got to spend so much time with my beloved grandparents. we visited our old house like we always do every time i come back. everything seems so much smaller, so much more worn year to year.
every time we went out and bumped into someone familiar on the road, they'd look at me in wonder, unable to comprehend that the little girl with pigtails and a love for butterflies has grown into such a tall young adult.
its the same story every time i go and come back. too many changes, too many questions, never enough time. my cousin is in college now and i got to see him when he came home for new years. i also got to see my second cousin and even talked about american tv shows.

man, i miss my family. my grandma still won't let me go out on my own and still calls me her 'bao bao' =] i set up an email account for my grandpa and taught him how to use it. and he's publishing a book on teaching Russian.
i thought this time i went home was to finally let go of the past and show a grown up adult to my family. but now i know i don't need to do that. in a way, we should all retain some childlike qualities. i don't ever want to lose that sense of wonder and magic.